I remember believing that it was wrong to smoke or drink or even date, as I was a teenager. apart from not doing the above, I learnt to despise those who did. sometimes we are so blind to new perspective just because we believe something so strongly. Once I realized that some of my beliefs were not exactly true, I could no longer differentiate right from wrong. all of a sudden, everything started to appear grey. I had to find out for sure that I was not blindly following anything. I wanted to make sure that my life is the way it is only because I chose it. I wanted to explore the world beyond my imaginary boundaries. In an endeavor to do so, I started breaking every rule my parents ever set for me. I got so engrossed in enjoying the boundlessness of life that I started to lose myself. Even though my every instinct screamed out and asked me to stop, I did not care. Even though I knew people around me were making mistakes, I did not have the confidence to say so. that was one of the darkest periods of my life, and it still haunts me. throughout all the darkness and my careless choices, I found two people who stood by me. If I had to endure all of this again or even worse, just for these two guys, I would not think for second. Along the way, I met too many losers, and sometimes, I was one among them.
Most of the time, I convince myself that I was too young and naive and hence things turned out the way they did, but I still cannot forgive myself for one particular incident and probably can never get over it. Well! whats done is done! I cannot change it.( just so the reader knows, I did not physically harm anybody!) however, on a happier note, I got back on track, set rules and boundaries that are tried and tested! I learnt to be a good friend and what it means to really love someone. I'm not a really an outgoing person, but I have a few people who are utterly dear to me. Some times, the worst parts of life teach us a lot more than happy situations. And every time, failure is more valuable than success. It may be an achievement to never fail in life, but to get over the first failure is a greater achievement. The minute we disappoint ourselves, the world just seams to fall apart. to gather all the pieces and put it together and get ourselves to believe that "it will work this time", seems to me, as the greatest challenge. there were times when I completely gave up, I was living like a ghost, with no interest in life, depressed and aimless. I was waiting for a miracle to set everything right or for that perfect day where I could be cheerful like before. Well, soon I came to realize that if you want a miracle, you need to create it. It might seem difficult to forgive or move on, but it is definitely not impossible. The things that seemed right yesterday may not be right today, and those that seem wrong today may be right tomorrow.
Its not our job to decide what is right or wrong, but this is our life and we truly have all control over it. Some times, we may be lost, it might feel like everything is just slipping away, but the only mistake we can do is to give up and wait. because the thing being lost is your life, this moment will never come back and it is a sin to let it just go! this may sound like a sentence you've read a million times, but if you just feel it once, you'll know what its worth!
Hope everyone's having a great day!
Most of the time, I convince myself that I was too young and naive and hence things turned out the way they did, but I still cannot forgive myself for one particular incident and probably can never get over it. Well! whats done is done! I cannot change it.( just so the reader knows, I did not physically harm anybody!) however, on a happier note, I got back on track, set rules and boundaries that are tried and tested! I learnt to be a good friend and what it means to really love someone. I'm not a really an outgoing person, but I have a few people who are utterly dear to me. Some times, the worst parts of life teach us a lot more than happy situations. And every time, failure is more valuable than success. It may be an achievement to never fail in life, but to get over the first failure is a greater achievement. The minute we disappoint ourselves, the world just seams to fall apart. to gather all the pieces and put it together and get ourselves to believe that "it will work this time", seems to me, as the greatest challenge. there were times when I completely gave up, I was living like a ghost, with no interest in life, depressed and aimless. I was waiting for a miracle to set everything right or for that perfect day where I could be cheerful like before. Well, soon I came to realize that if you want a miracle, you need to create it. It might seem difficult to forgive or move on, but it is definitely not impossible. The things that seemed right yesterday may not be right today, and those that seem wrong today may be right tomorrow.
Its not our job to decide what is right or wrong, but this is our life and we truly have all control over it. Some times, we may be lost, it might feel like everything is just slipping away, but the only mistake we can do is to give up and wait. because the thing being lost is your life, this moment will never come back and it is a sin to let it just go! this may sound like a sentence you've read a million times, but if you just feel it once, you'll know what its worth!
Hope everyone's having a great day!
